"What am I telling myself would make me happy if only I had it? Whatever is your if only, that becomes your slave master. It destroys your will...worship is the only thing that can replace the little if only fire burning in your heart. We need a new fire that says, “If only I saw the Lord. If only he was close to my heart. If only I could feel him to be as great as I know him to be. If only I could taste his grace as sweet as I know it to be."